The Massive Point of No Return

The moment you realize that you can’t go back to not knowing, not seeing, not feeling what you know, see and feel right now. That moment when you truly meet yourself, your depths, your power and yet come to find out that that makes you isolate, regress into aloneness because the challenge of facing reality and the people in it is so completely different in its nature that you don’t know how to maneuver it now.

The First Ascension – The spiritual one

This is the time when soul is present. Yes, it might be easier to dream yourself into the fantasy of what was, an easier time, when you didn’t have to face reality, when you were fast asleep, when you could easily fit in. But hey, isn’t that exactly what it is – a fantasy? Was it really ever that for any of us? In all honesty, looking back, we tend to make it more beautiful than it in fact was. Did we fit in, really? Didn’t we just close ourselves off to fit the mold, fit into that small box of ‘normal’. Ask yourself this: Does anyone fit into the that box?

Then we face this new box. Another box called ‘the spiritual awake ones’. And they also participate with life through social media. They share all the good that they are going through. All the good that has come to them since their awakening; their beautiful relationships, their spiritual abilities, their successes etc. None of them talking about the hardships that comes with it. Is that reality? Isn’t it just another fantasy? In that very moment, another ego-construct is happening. The spiritual ego - Another level of dissociation.

You know that there is no going back but the road ahead also seems quite impossible to grasp. What’s next then?

The Fall from Grace - Descension

Next level up is the fall. The fall from however high you climbed spiritually to the ground with your face in the physical reality mud pool. The acknowledgement of how huge the spiritual ego had gotten, which is another awakening but an awakening causing great sadness and confusion, because who are you now? You are not the old sleep-walking self. You are not the highly enlightened, spiritually great self and you’re not capable to take either of these roles back and place upon yourself. You are neither. Now what? You know that there is no going back but the road ahead also seems quite impossible to grasp. What’s next then? This is often the time we search for answers. We search for the light at the end of the tunnel. But remember that this is very similar to the beginning of your spiritual ascension. You had to look for answers outside of yourself to find them within yourself. This isn’t much different from that. Only this time you don’t start from scratch. This time you start from knowing that you can’t go back to sleep, you know what your soul feels like, and you know, from the experience of evolution in your spiritual abilities that there is so much more than mere physical existence. By the way, the reason I call it an ‘experience of evolution in your spiritual abilities’ is because they were always there, always evolved and in reality, you just became aware of them and started to unwrap them all, one by one, layer by layer.

So now, you start asking: What is my next step? What is my road ahead in life going to be?

You appear in their life, and they appear in yours. Some are there for the whole journey as your support, others appear for a while and leave again.

The Second Ascension – Reaching the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth

This is the ascension where we, as I mentioned in the section above, don’t start from ground zero but from a higher place of knowing more than we did before. Only this time, we are demanded to evolve with the physical body as the center. I have come to understand the second ascension as the one where we make room for the soul in the physical reality. It’s like we are given a new home, our dreamhome, and now we are going to decorate it. Most of the rooms we decorate for the soul to live in and take ownership of. You only leave one single room to be untouched. This room is for the times when we need to dissociate still, get tested and fail or succeed. This room provides us with the permission to not be perfect, to still make human mistakes, to still have fears. Everything else is touched by the soul and inhibited by it. Every item you have picked to put on a shelf is soul’s choice. Every lamp, every chair etc. is chosen by soul. Your soul. Your home. Your soulful life has moved in. Now the second ascension is well on its way. Next is to send it out into the world to touch, connect and relate with whomever are called into close proximity with you. You appear in their life, and they appear in yours. Some are there for the whole journey as your support, others appear for a while and leave again. Now you know that that’s how it’s meant to be. It all happens for a reason, and we are the ones to know what that reason is and learn from it as the gift that it truly is.

This was, of course, a short version of the whole journey. I am still on my second ascension and have no idea when it will end, if it ever will and what my next step will be. So far, I have intentionally and willingly, sometimes also unwillingly, journeyed on this path of evolution into spirit for 15 years. It can probably be done faster, but that was how much I had to let go of before I could surrender to my soul, the divine and my divine soul-path.

Let me know about your journey. Share in the comments below.

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With all my love

Elizabeth Walker