The Hidden Fear of Our Spirituality

Elizabeth Walker
Feb 25, 2025
4 min read

Updated: Jul 21, 2025

-The Fear of Being Fully Seen

Have you ever felt like you had to dim your light to fit into the world around you? Have you ever held back your spirituality out of fear that others wouldn’t understand?

The Discomfort of Being Seen

-The other day, I found myself sitting in a classroom, surrounded by people discussing spiritual matters. Because of my abilities, the conversation naturally turned to me. They asked about the mysteries of the universe, the difference between reading timelines and sensing energies versus encountering ghosts and poltergeists.

I don’t claim to have all the answers, I simply channel what is given to me. Over the past four decades, I have received insights that have deepened my wisdom.

But this post isn’t about the knowledge I’ve gained.

It’s about how that moment made me feel.

As I sat there, I felt out of place. Something about the setting, the world of natural sciences, felt misaligned with the deeply spiritual conversation we were having. And suddenly, I felt something unexpected: nervousness, insecurity, even vulnerability.

Not because I doubted myself. Not because I questioned my spirituality. But because it felt like the wrong time and place to reveal this part of me.

But why?

Why should there ever be a "wrong place" to be fully myself?

Why did I suddenly feel hesitant to express my truth?

Have You Ever Felt This?

Have you ever been in a situation where you felt like you couldn’t be all of who you are?

Like your spirituality was something to hide, downplay, or protect because it might be misunderstood or judged?

The Weight of Past Experiences

- This wasn’t the first time I felt this way.

I once spoke to a priest about a sermon in which she dismissed spiritual gifts like mine. As someone employed to sing in her church, I needed to know:

Could I exist here as my full self?

Could I honor both my faith and my gifts in a space meant for divine connection?

She was open and respectful in our conversation, which reassured me.

But the experience I had the other day, reminded me that, for the past year, I had allowed my spirituality to rest in the background—not in my personal life, but in the public eye.

And I’ve missed it.

For the past few months, I’ve felt the calling again, the pull to step back into my full essence and share my gifts more openly. And perhaps that’s why this moment felt so vulnerable.

The Pause in My Spiritual Expression

- For over a year, I stepped back from publicly sharing my spiritual work, not because it left my life (it never could), but because I had focused on being "just Elizabeth”; the woman, the friend, the mother, the wife.

But recently, something inside me has been calling me back, an undeniable pull to step forward again, fully and unapologetically.

Maybe that’s why this moment felt so raw. Because I knew, deep down, that I was meant to be seen again.

Or maybe it was simply a misalignment in my four bodies—a shift in balance that left me feeling off-center.

The Four Bodies: A Journey to Alignment

I’d love to take you on a journey to understand the interconnectedness of our being.

Have you ever noticed how different seasons of life bring different priorities?

Sometimes, you’re deeply immersed in your mental world; learning, analyzing, thinking.

Other times, your focus is on emotional healing, tending to your heart.

Maybe you’ve been rooted in your physical self, caring for your body and material world.

Or perhaps you’ve been in a spiritual season, deeply connected to the unseen.

But when one area takes over completely, we can start to feel off-balance, as if something is missing.

The realization is: True harmony isn’t about “balancing” masculine and feminine within us—it’s about uniting all four parts of our being: mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual.

God wouldn’t set us on a path to achieve something impossible, which it is to balance feminine and masculine within. But He has given us the ability to align our four bodies, to bring them together in perfect flow, because that is who we are.

Two Questions for You

I invite you to reflect on these:

What would it take for you to be courageous enough to show up as your full, spiritual self—no matter where you are or who you’re with?
How can you bring your mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual selves into greater unity?

For me, the key has been awareness. I notice when I am leaning too much into one body and neglecting the others. I feel it most in my interactions with others; when sadness, frustration, or self-doubt creep in, it’s often because I’ve been pulled out of alignment.

And here’s the shift:

I no longer push those feelings down.

I speak them.

I express them.

I bring myself back home to my oneness.

What Would That Look Like for You?

I’d love to hear your thoughts. Drop a comment below and let’s explore this together.

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